Saturday, 21 March 2015

weird stuff

I'm in the middle of a huge weird thing of confusion and change right now. I'm learning - fast - a lot of new things, new ways of doing things, and more importantly, new ways of thinking about things. And new ways of seeing things, too. I haven't photographed anything out of pure personal gain since... since I got here in the autumn. I feel like I don't know what I would photograph, because I'm overthinking everything, and man, that's some weird stuff.
I suppose this is a good thing, this learning process, and I hope it will never stop, as much as that is a cliché. I enjoy thinking about these things I'm thinking about, and I enjoy the feeling of trying to make progress, despite the fact that I'm overdoing it.

Things are going to change. Things are already changing inside my head, I hope, but the changes will eventually affect my work - and this blog. I will make this blog into something more functional, along other media of expressing my thoughts, so that I can leave the endless self-criticism to myself and uni, and make this blog into the thing I need, instead of what I feel like it should be based on what it has been so far.

Saturday, 28 February 2015

life in a jar

We've had a really cool still life project going on at uni. To be honest, before this project I thought that still life couldn't be anything more than drawing a jug and some apples in a bowl, and I never knew I could be this excited for photographing objects! For me this was one of the most thrilling things we've done at uni (another one being the octopus picture).
The brief for this one was to create an autobiographical composite image. It wasn't the easiest of briefs, but I enjoyed thinking about and photographing this. Also, this was one of my first real touches to using Photoshop along with another still life - a recreation one - that I would love to publish, but I need to figure out how to deal with recreations properly first.

Now, after still life, we're starting a project with portraits in film!

Saturday, 31 January 2015


Hey there! I'm happily back in Edinburgh after the holidays, happily back in business! I deeply regret that I left my camera here when I travelled back home, so logically from that follows that now is the time to take a look at the most interesting shoot I had last semester, right? Because I have no holiday season-y snow pictures, it's time for something else that used to be frozen, right?

This was part of our recreation assignment and here's the original by Sarah Ann Loreth

It feels like I have adored this photograph always. It's one of the first that caught my eye a long time ago that I still can recall as my early inspiration. A couple of months ago when I asked myself "what do I want to recreate?" I first browsed tumblr and my flickr favourites to find something doable but exciting. When I stopped to think, it was obvious that I would recreate this one. With the wise words of our tutor: when would I ever get such a good opportunity to put an octopus on my head?

And here's my recreation

Obviously the octopuses probably weren't twins. When I bought them frozen I was expecting one big one and was surprised to get two small ones. Unfortunately the model in the original photo and I are hardly twins either, but the original photographer Sarah Ann Loreth and her model are!

I've gotten a lot of strong (sometimes it's hard to tell if "you must be crazy!" is positive or negative) feedback from this picture, and that has been fun. Though I am conscious of that the feedback, positive or negative, was probably about what I did for the picture rather than the picture itself. I don't know if I like that or not. Forgetting the fact that this isn't actually my image, I just recreated something someone else had already done, do I want to take a good picture or do something good that I can take a picture of? Are they even two different things, or are they two sides of one thing? And maybe it's not bipolar, maybe it's more diverse than good/bad and positive/negative. I suppose this is part of my struggle for 'what makes a good photograph'.

Funnily enough the most difficult things about this recreation were preventing the octopuses from falling off my head and keeping my eyes open against the super bright light. In my experience the smell wasn't that bad, though to be honest I did spend a considerable amount of time in the shower after the shoot.